ridding thy life of the book

...and a family pic for good measure. 

just a few days back, i took a rather bold step in the direction of adulthood and deleted my facebook account.  i stand corrected; let me use the correct verbiage here and say that i "deactivated" it.  there really is no such thing as deleting facebook i'll have you know.  i know because i tried and failed.  facebook is the cockroach of the bug community and cannot be killed.  hauntingly, somewhat akin to those over-sized speckled glasses you wore back in the 90's but that's another post, it will exist far into the future in the archives of the internet god's lair and grin at me, i am quite sure.  just to spite me for my deactivating ways. 

the book, as i occasionally refer to it, had become a place of negativity and annoyance for me.  a real buggar and pain in my peace-seeking arse, if you will.  it was time to just let go.  it had become that dreaded balloon, and therefore it was long overdue for me to untie its burdensome string.  so silly of me that saying goodbye to facebook was a difficult thing, but it was.

that was the one place where i could look in on old classmates without confrontation or awkwardness, see hospital pictures of newly born (within seconds, you know the drill) babies at whim, catch up with family members living in distant cities and states, and so on and so forth.  but recently, i have been feeling such a disconnect there.  to be honest, it had become a beast of a burden to check daily, as i would find myself doing if bored.  to say that there are times that i am bored with a toddler on the loose is laughable, because i think i started to exchange and confuse the feeling of boredom with peace.  as in listening to the cicadas or my breath rise and fall.  i started to replace the beautiful simplicities in life with negative fillers such as facebook and not surprisingly so, started to feel a bit down.  there are other fillers i have in my life that need good riddance, but in good time.  

so one afternoon after i had just got done scrolling through what can only be described as utter mindlessness on the book, i decided things in my life needed to be simplified.  and positive, for goodness sakes!  facebook was not among those two powerful qualities.  in fact, it was turning into the exact opposite for me as i realized i didn't actually know, as in really know, about 95% of the people i followed.  ridiculousness. 

with just a few keyboard clicks later, i felt so free and untied down.  it's not that i am, or was rather, a posting fiend, but i felt the nag to pier in on other's lives far too often than i should.  i felt it pertinent to check my feed more times than i go to the bathroom, which i'll have you is about a couple dozen a day.  

i am aware that getting rid of the book means losing touch with some people, but such is life.  i do have this here blog, an instagram account, twitter, and a phone (by golly who woulda thunk it) and, like, face to face interactions on the off chance that i want to meet up with a real live human!  so it's not like i am disappearing altogether, but that sure does sound nice.  doesn't it?  

in my young age, i have found certain things to be true.   simplicity is a large and important stepping stone leading towards happiness and one can have simplicity if one so desires.   it's a choice.  and therefore, so is happiness.  

seeing that my life is about to take on a major change, it was time for some editing.  i am choosing to believe that less is more and that if people want to stay in contact with us, there are means to achieving this.  just not on a negative platform such as facebook.  

in getting back to the basics i plan on editing in other areas of my life, too.  it just feels necessary.  

onward and upward, my comrades! 

*perhaps i have been dabbling in too much whitman...?  nah.  not possible.