doughnut cakes are best

last night we had a little party for our two year old at our home.  i am still getting used to saying that!  we had some close friends and family over with some margherita pizza pie, strawberry lemonade, and one epic doughnut cake with happy birthday candles.  being ridiculously busy as of late, and dog tired too, this was a fantastic option for a meal and cake.  it was simple and very yummy.  i highly recommend leaving the cooking to others if you need to.  and more importantly, stella loved it!  she has been asking for "peezaa" all week.  :) 

you should have seen her last night.  she was glowing.  after each present she opened, she just had to have that item on.  such a glamourista this one.  by the end of her gift opening session, she was dressed fully class in her new dress, shoes, tutu, fairy wings, and a strawberry shortcake helmet.  oh, and a new scooter to cruise around on the plaza this summer.  you know, like all the cool big kids.  

at the end of the night with stella in bed, i was in my jammies with my feet up reading my last post to my husband.  when i got near the middle, i could not help but cry.  it was one of those ugly put-your-hands-over-your-face-and-let-me-be cry.  it was needed.  reliving some of those moments two years ago are still painful today.  they conjure up emotions that i have buried down.  emotions coated in fear, mainly.  i just don't want our family to have to go through that again with our second baby.  but i cannot fail to mention how utterly blessed we are to have a healthy baby now.  so, so blessed.  that cannot be overlooked.    

and then we watched some newborn videos of stella that just kept the tears streaming.  

our little home party was such a success.  we could see it on the countless smiles from our sweet girl.  she sat up in her bed after her dada read her books saying, "bayday to you, lala!"  she adores emphasizing how happy she is to us.  when she is happy, so is the world.  she beams and brightens everyone's day.  she is our  sunshine.  

we are glad you enjoyed your special day, stella.  you so deserve it!